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Blood Drive

Let the blood flows
Let the love grows
Let life goes on
And let’s move on.

Hold my hand please
Be calm and peace
Feel my heart beat
Hugs and kisses

Drive me back home
Old memories
Funny stories
Bring me to rest

Days are counted
Love was hunted
August Seven
Twenty Fourteen

About Blood Drive Poem

This is a quick poem I wrote after NEU Blood Drive at NDEP Center. I knew that there will be a blood donation but I don’t know exactly when. Early morning before 10 am "July 14, 2016", When I passed by NDEP Center, I fill-up and registered myself as blood donor.

I mention about August Seven before I end up the poem. I remember good memories that I wanted to go back from that day.

PS: I wish I can always donate blood specially when someone badly need it. I feels likes giving life supports for whom who wants to live long. Today July 11, 2017 I don't really know more about happen last August seven.

Lorgil Maquiling

When You Become My Candle Light

I’ve been long walking at the dark
Then your light shines into my heart
I started to fall in love
with a graceful path in my eyes

I’m happy to follow your ways
Never get lost in your trace
But all was just an illusion?
I want to see in my vision

I can hug your warm lovely light
I stare and let it through my heart
But that was when were young before
I wish I could love so much more

You are still the light that I knew
The one I kept but I let go
The light within will always be
Making night romantically

So sad to feel distant apart
Hope you can remember my heart
I want to touch flame of the night
Burning desire to keep your light.

The meaning of when you become my candle light

It was a heartbreaking moment when I invited someone to be with me and I knew that the answer was already no. The poem was created having this kind of feelings. I was in the dark but I did not mean I am not happy, dark was a symbol of my close heart and I mean to see the light as opening for the relationship. I became a follower of you  by tracing steps and every activity. I almost had seen the visions of me and you at the wedding, but it was just an illusion and false hope. I remember how it was before and now things had changed. Change? You are still the girl I knew, but I don’t know about you now. What I can see is that you become the better person and I can’t be with you now. All I can do is to watch and get some updates about you. I did not mean to stalk over you, what I am doing is keeping my desire to love you even if we are apart.

PS: I don’t want to post this poem on my blog but rather I wanted it to be published elsewhere. I did post in anyway and explain how it was made. I was first published by TransitMagazine

PS: The Model Lorgil Maquiling has nothing to do with the poem! But I the candle light and the bokeh.

never stop dreaming

The Night Without A Dream

It was empty and dark
Time skipping and sharp
Waking up to unknown
Life that you never own

For a blink of an eye
The whole night passes by
A night without a scream
The night without a dream

Sleep under the spell
The love you cannot sell
Hope that I didn’t mean
God please forgive my sin

Imagining the night
The future I’ve foreseen
Once forever waiting
Is night without a dream

The Meaning of The Night Without A Dream

This poem is about the time after I close my eyes at night and wake up with nothing to remember. My thoughts was asking where I am now and why I am here. It simply means that I am not at the place where I used to wake-up. I also want to say “my girl where did you slept last night” is for the line life that you never own.

I cannot really tell what will happen next from a single mistake that I did. For a blink of an eye is a decision that I cannot alter when it’s done. And I mention about A night without scream? yes I am experiencing lucid dream and I wish to know the truth even if it hurts. The night without a dream is a kind of rest. I think my spirit forbid me to dream and maybe I had enough.

I am broken heart lover who wants to carry all memories at the present or else I'll kept it in the past and forget. The love I cannot sell means rejection but my spirit of hope did not recognize that rejection. God please forgive my sin. I didn’t mean to over pray your love back, I guess I’m wrong I wish I had only prayed for guidance.

The future I've foreseen and once forever waiting is a vision vs dream! I can imagine and visualize the future with her and it is possible. But I am dreaming of the people that can never exist in reality but only in a dream.

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Never stop dreaming!

When Everything Is Over Between Us?

What is in between? I am losing control when I want you and that’s makes me crazy about you. It is when I wanted to talk with you and when I wanted you to be with me. But I want it under control and make everything just fine since I don’t want to steal your time doing your work or something that you love.

When did I lose your love?

Our communication is not getting better. I try to remind you how important it is when we are getting to know each other. Good communication can solved small issues before it becomes bigger and complicated. I wish you tried to tell me everything because I am more willing to understand and make up with you.

Time after time you might never notice that you are falling out of love with me because you had place your time somewhere without me. I said I wanted to go with you and do the same things “being together working with you on realty” but you said stay to what I am doing and focus on what I am working.

I had told you before a story of a child who spell love as time! The mother asked the spelling of LOVE, and the child wrote TIME. I hope you can always remember that. I am looking and searching, when did I lose your love? I know it is my fault to force you to make love fall-in-love with me and I am still guilty of that. I love you! And I will always love you no matter what.

Our relationship in between.

I manage to took care of my feelings. I've been hurt so bad before when I've seen some client message in your phone and you didn’t even introduce me as your boyfriend. Because I am giving of 100 percent of my trust and love to you, I become invulnerable “impossible to harm or damage” to my feelings. My trust and love will always be with you since we are putting our relationship between our Father. And I still believe that small gap between us can cover up with the commitment that bind us together.

When everything is over between us?

I want to forget the past and all about you, but let me stay with you, because you’re still the woman I want to love again and start over again. Who will steal my commitment anyway when I asked God to keep it? My love and commitment for His will be done, I shall love again to a woman who can reciprocate my love.

For the new beginning.

I believe that God loves me and He will send someone here who can love me more. Well, I hope that you’re still the one for me. I am going to move on. I wanted to go back for us, but I am more willing to see you at the top. If you are not there? Someone else will, and she’s probably the one who come along together with me. And I will never want to lose the feelings of being love again.

Right now, someone you haven't met is out there wandering what would it be like to meet someone like you.

Right now, someone you haven't met is out there wandering what would it be like to meet someone like you.

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Now I Welcome People Who Will Come, Stay And Go

I am not ready to let go!

When I found myself walking away to the path we used to love, I always try to follow the track where you had been gone. A change of mind and a change of heart is a life changing journey with you. But no matter what happens I will keep on adjusting just to be at the same path with you. Life's goes on and now I notice that I've been holding this feelings for so long and my love can make it longer. I realize that I can continue loving you in any way because I understand the art of being contented loving you and accepted who you are. I've learned to live with it that is why letting go is not really an option!

Honestly, I am chasing you day after day even without your knowing. You might think one day I already gave up! Never will I give up my happiness until I am ready to let go. I've learned to be grateful! What I had from you was enough and your presence is giving me so much inspiration. That is why I am striving not to lose hope.

Don't worry about me for one day soon I will be ready to let go. Effort adding more effort to love you cannot be kept in silence. When the right time comes, someone will emerge strong enough to make me change my mind and heart – someone to make me weak and let go, someone to help me get strong enough and walk away. There will be someone who can show me that there is always a better way to experience love. The unconditional love that reciprocate as you give. I believe God can love me like this. Who knows if God gives me favor to love me by you?

Soon I am ready to let go!

Yesterday defeats are buried forever and I will think of it no more. Today at this moment, I am going to celebrate happiness and give thanks to my Creator. Tomorrow will always be a dream, which is why I must enjoy the moment of reality. I am ready to let go the fears of being left behind, as you fall-out of love for whatever reason. Now I am not afraid because I know the love I am giving can only be appreciated by those who can stay. Please stay! If not, I am going to let go.

Now I welcome people who will come, stay and go!

Every person I meet is a reflection of me and I will treat them well. People will come to me as I attract who I am, and I will take care of the relationship with them as I take care of myself. I am glad to have them stay with me for the common things we have inside our heart and mind, to the same vision we see ahead of time and for the plan we are going to make together.

PS: Thank you for the last time you said you love me! I will treat that words as a seed. Like the nature that we cannot stop the seeds from growing and if the words are really meant for us to be together, I am glad to love you like I loved you yesterday, today and love you more each day.

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I Will Never Lose This Kind Of Feeling

Dear Ex (for this kind of feeling!)

I saw you in mind that you ware happy.
I found you in my heart that you ware sweet.
I can feel in future you'll be ready
We can be together with love so great

It's nice to know you're enjoying the days
I'll be more happy for the price I pay
I want to be with you no matter what
Where ever you are I'll be one step apart.

The love of God and memory of you
I can always feel closer next to you
With the love so warm and tender loving
I will never lose this kind of feeling.

About this poem I Will Never Lose This Kind Of Feeling.

I am just playing my vision that maybe time will come like this. I don't know what will happen sooner or later but now I know what I feel at the moment. I just want that someday that we might be on the same path again. Like I can always see you anytime or waking up hearing your voice or calling my name. I cannot promise you this but I will try not to lose this kind of feeling. Thank you so much for making me feel this way.

Grace Baque and Dlysen

Happy Women’s Day to Grace

For the strongest woman I ever met in my life.  The one who fills up the emptiness inside me. She is my Grace and the first person whom introduced me to the kind of love I will live for. I loved her and I will be loving her every day in my life. Happy Women’s Day.

Grace Baque

Happy Women’s Day.

I know you for being weak and strong women because I’ve been with you. Knowing you for such a year now make me believe that you are amazing Grace. I am so proud and happy to know about you more each day. Knowing your great improvement makes me feel inspired too.

You’re the women in my life that I wanted to be with because I can feel that you are the abundance source of my happiness. I want to be the first one to make you smile and greet you good morning. I want to comfort and take care of you until we fall asleep. A life being with you is so great.

You have my love that I kept inside me. Now my love is yours, please help this love of mine understand how I can love you at your best and even at your worst. My heart is not a kind of glass that you can break, my heart is made of flesh and blood that can express real emotions.

I wanted to say more about how good you are to me and how much I love you. Please take care always.

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Focus Journal 2016

Thank you for this journal, the kind of gift that I can touch and hold as your hand. This will help me improve my goals and plan. I can always remember Grace when I am opening and filling up the page each day.

Before end of this year 2015, I am filling up my commitment on this journal, so help me God. Let’s welcome the year 2016 claiming for the blessing that we are asking for. For my dreams or something better dear God, your will be done.

My Vision

What are the three things you value most, no amount of money can replace.

  1. The membership of the Church Of Christ, you can take everything from me but not my life serving the living God.
  2. My heart, you can change my mind for good and for the better; but my heart will always love what I learned to do and love.
  3. My family, my immediate source of happiness when I can find it within myself.

Describe your dream life. What life are you living?

I am dreaming of happy life, all the things I have is enough and my blessing is so much to share.

What skills do you have that you can develop, that the world needs, and would be willing to pay for?

I am a designer and programmer, I use this to help myself and my client to expand their business.

Goals for the Year

Base on your Vision, what do you want to focus on this year? Keep a list of goals so you always have something to go back to when you need a little reminder.

I will become better at:

  • Time management
  • Online Marketing

I will practice:

  • How to reach and greet people
  • I will learn how to communicate with business ethic

I will remember to:

  • Say thanks for what I am thankful
  • Take care of myself and be healthy

I will do my best to:

  • Master my emotion
  • Be efficient on my task

I will not shy out of:

  • My appearance and looks

Before the year ends, I will:

  • Attract more love and blessings.
  • I have enough for myself and I can give more.

My specific goals are:

  • Save the minimum amount of 5,000.00 per month.
  • Perform my daily task.
  • Get new client every month.
  • Give thanks to God.

My Daily Task

  • Pray when I wake up
  • Create Inspiration and make happy thoughts
  • Check Message
  • Drink Water
  • Look on the priority task list and schedules
  • Cook / Buy Food / Eat
  • Take a Bath
  • Do work with passion
  • Be thankful before end of the day
  • Surrender to God.



My Grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. ~ 2 Corinthians 12:9

Year-End Thanksgiving To God 2015

Happy thanksgiving. This year is great or good enough? It will depends on how I see it. I feel great for all the challenges that I’ve been through. I humbly bow myself down for the bad experience. In the summary of it! I am thankful for whatever happens, because in any case or situation there is God to look over and love me.

Love life – Thanks for the love! I am lucky to feel the love of God. This kind of love from God is the feelings that you can not compare from anyone.

Lessons – Experience taught me how! I’ve learned from hard way where I have to suffer and feel the pain. I’ve learned from my fear and doubts where I have to face it no more. I’ve learned when I am happy and grateful when I know everything can be taken away from you any time. Life at the edge can changed me and I had to learn and discover not to fall down again and again. When it turns out that I don’t know what to do, I give up, surrender, and accept the fact that I am not good enough or I can not able to do so. But I never quit! I’ve learned to seek God’s help and that is how I understand how God’s love is good.

Faith – it’s hard to surrender the belief that you have in your heart! Information may poison your mind but don’t let it get into your heart. We can get confuse of what is happening but I am rest assured that faith in my heart cannot be shaken. I thank You God for You are more than willing to enter in my heart. How can I feel God’s in your heart? I must keep the faith, surrender and obey.

Family – My family is my strength! I already lost my father last year and my mom’s just pass away this year. Thanks You for our parents. They taught us how to live in life and how to die at peace. They are the perfect example to show us that life is to short to waste on something not important. Life on earth ends whether you do good or bad things. And my parents taught us to know how important know know bad and good things. Farewell to my parents. Thank you God for having a family that making us close together and learn from each other.

Blessings – I asked so hard for the blessing that I wanted. I just don’t realise that all I need is a little of God’s grace and that would be enough. Thank you God for suppressing Your blessing to me. I may misuse the blessing if too much or this can lead me away from Your grace. Thank You for giving me what I have right now.

Friends – I have a good friend. Thank You for making us to lean and support each other. Sometimes the words that you want to speak for me came out from their advices. Thank You for having them to be with me as we journey in this life.

Naptalyn – Thank You so much for having her! She is such a great person in my life. She will always be in my heart because she is the girl who taught me how to reach You. She’s the girl who led me to feel the love that I am receiving from You. I have so much to tell about her but I prepare to keep it in silence and on prayer.