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The Night Without A Dream

It was empty and dark
Time skipping and sharp
Waking up to unknown
Life that you never own

For a blink of an eye
The whole night passes by
A night without a scream
The night without a dream

Sleep under the spell
The love you cannot sell
Hope that I didn’t mean
God please forgive my sin

Imagining the night
The future I’ve foreseen
Once forever waiting
Is night without a dream

The Meaning of The Night Without A Dream

This poem is about the time after I close my eyes at night and wake up with nothing to remember. My thoughts was asking where I am now and why I am here. It simply means that I am not at the place where I used to wake-up. I also want to say “my girl where did you slept last night” is for the line life that you never own.

I cannot really tell what will happen next from a single mistake that I did. For a blink of an eye is a decision that I cannot alter when it’s done. And I mention about A night without scream? yes I am experiencing lucid dream and I wish to know the truth even if it hurts. The night without a dream is a kind of rest. I think my spirit forbid me to dream and maybe I had enough.

I am broken heart lover who wants to carry all memories at the present or else I'll kept it in the past and forget. The love I cannot sell means rejection but my spirit of hope did not recognize that rejection. God please forgive my sin. I didn’t mean to over pray your love back, I guess I’m wrong I wish I had only prayed for guidance.

The future I've foreseen and once forever waiting is a vision vs dream! I can imagine and visualize the future with her and it is possible. But I am dreaming of the people that can never exist in reality but only in a dream.

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Never stop dreaming!

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It’s Easy To Let Go If You Know How To Get It Back!

You don’t need to be worried of losing something important if you know how to get it back. And YES! it’s really hard to accept that the things once were in your hand was gone. You need to know how to get it back to help you not to worry much.

About Me

Yesterday I’ve lost my phone! A Lenovo K8 Note together with MyPhone basic phone. The moment I noticed that it was not in my pocket, I already admit my carelessness and assume that it was slip-out on the tricycle that I rode from Manansala St. to SaveMore, V.Luna extension. This is not my first time to lose mobile phone. My Starmobile Octa-Core was lost or stolen by pickpocket on the bus right after I got in the bus at Philippine Coconut Authority on January 2015. It is very easy to let go mobile phone when you can afford to buy a new one.

About Waiting

So I think you already get over me and let our relationship end. You know that I will always love you and that will be easy for you to get me back. I am happily waiting but please don’t make it too long because my heart might be stolen.

About Love

Don’t asked me how easy to get back the love you knew once was true and then fade. Admit that when you let go, it might never come back. The things that you cannot control are impossible and hard, but you can always learn how it goes and how it works, to find the opportunity to manage.

About Money

The rich people are not afraid to lose all money they got because they know how to get it back, while a poor people are the opposite.

About Faith

You have to let go of yourself and surrender! Admit that you cannot do all things and sometimes all you can do is to cry. Cry to tell your God that you already did your best and you need help. God is waiting for us to seek Him so He can restore us back. Let go and surrender all the things you cannot do, your God is always have a better plan for you.

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My Nanay And Tatay Taught Me How To Live And Die

I want to share what valuable lesson I’ve learned from my parents. They had always been a source of love and happiness that I want to cherish. Sharing this is just a way of being thankful to my Nanay and Tatay.

To make the story short, they took care of me and guide me through living. The final part was how they shown me the graceful farewell.

A guide to live

I live by quotes from my parents who said to me. “Learn what is evil and good and live the path that you’ve chosen.” Then it is my will to be what I want to be!

My father was a giver. He gives his all and sometimes he forgot the set aside for himself just to help others. My father was a kind man and I’ve learned that I must able to help myself first before I can help others.

Strong will to survive! My father had so many near death experiences. Is it amazing to get back and recover from over 10 strokes? How many times did he hold his life string to asked for another breath to come. If he only thought for himself he just let go of his breath and goodbye. I’ve learned that I must live with purpose to live long. I want to become very good in helping my family, friends and myself.

My mother was always with patient and grace. My mom had a dream of a good life for me; she was calm and had the vision that one day I can achieve it. She can easily forgive and showed me that life is meant to be happy. I’ve learned that waiting for changes is important and I will change for good from time to time. If today is not for my success then the next day might be mine. I’ve learned to forgive my self first before I understand why I should forgive others.

Strong love to remain! My mom bears all her emotions and kept by herself. All I've seen in front of her was being happy. Her love was great for she was able to hid her burdens and suffering from me. She keeps on telling the same story over and over again because she knew it was good and its really good. She stayed beside my father in good and bad times, even for better or worst. She tagged along with my brother and sister who were in need. If I am going to love, I will love like my nanay who give time and presence to make you feel good.

A farewell lessons.

Peaceful, my father died peacefully while sleeping. I know that pain is not peaceful at all and he left us with the message of HOPE, “Hold On Pain End.” He was suffering from emphysema with only one lung to support his breath. He can only see with one eye and eat with one tooth. In his case, the only way to endure pain is to die and it is so meaningless. But he is not really talking about pain. He wanted me to hold on to what makes me happy because pain is just a counter measure of happiness weather it is physical or emotional pain. I’ve learned that if it is meaningless to hold on, then learn to let go because you can still be happy with something else without pain.

My mom passed away and never gave any sign that she was about to rest forever. It was always been a normal days for my mom at Lobo, Batangas. I guess my mom live life for my father and having only with that purpose, its best for her to rest. She knew that my brother, sister and I can live on our own and it's time to go. I’ve learned to be contented to what I have and leave the rest for the world to share.

Thank you Tatay at Nanay.

Thank you Tatay for lighting up the will of fire in me, and now want to live helping my family, my friends and myself in order of priority. Thank you for showing us how to hold on our happiness and how to let go of pain.

Thank you Nanay for loving Tatay with all your heart and soul. You show us to become contented to what we had and your love for us is always abundance. I miss your hugs and smiles. I’m sure I will love the way you loved.

When Everything Is Over Between Us?

What is in between? I am losing control when I want you and that’s makes me crazy about you. It is when I wanted to talk with you and when I wanted you to be with me. But I want it under control and make everything just fine since I don’t want to steal your time doing your work or something that you love.

When did I lose your love?

Our communication is not getting better. I try to remind you how important it is when we are getting to know each other. Good communication can solved small issues before it becomes bigger and complicated. I wish you tried to tell me everything because I am more willing to understand and make up with you.

Time after time you might never notice that you are falling out of love with me because you had place your time somewhere without me. I said I wanted to go with you and do the same things “being together working with you on realty” but you said stay to what I am doing and focus on what I am working.

I had told you before a story of a child who spell love as time! The mother asked the spelling of LOVE, and the child wrote TIME. I hope you can always remember that. I am looking and searching, when did I lose your love? I know it is my fault to force you to make love fall-in-love with me and I am still guilty of that. I love you! And I will always love you no matter what.

Our relationship in between.

I manage to took care of my feelings. I've been hurt so bad before when I've seen some client message in your phone and you didn’t even introduce me as your boyfriend. Because I am giving of 100 percent of my trust and love to you, I become invulnerable “impossible to harm or damage” to my feelings. My trust and love will always be with you since we are putting our relationship between our Father. And I still believe that small gap between us can cover up with the commitment that bind us together.

When everything is over between us?

I want to forget the past and all about you, but let me stay with you, because you’re still the woman I want to love again and start over again. Who will steal my commitment anyway when I asked God to keep it? My love and commitment for His will be done, I shall love again to a woman who can reciprocate my love.

For the new beginning.

I believe that God loves me and He will send someone here who can love me more. Well, I hope that you’re still the one for me. I am going to move on. I wanted to go back for us, but I am more willing to see you at the top. If you are not there? Someone else will, and she’s probably the one who come along together with me. And I will never want to lose the feelings of being love again.

Right now, someone you haven't met is out there wandering what would it be like to meet someone like you.

Right now, someone you haven't met is out there wandering what would it be like to meet someone like you.

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Now I Welcome People Who Will Come, Stay And Go

I am not ready to let go!

When I found myself walking away to the path we used to love, I always try to follow the track where you had been gone. A change of mind and a change of heart is a life changing journey with you. But no matter what happens I will keep on adjusting just to be at the same path with you. Life's goes on and now I notice that I've been holding this feelings for so long and my love can make it longer. I realize that I can continue loving you in any way because I understand the art of being contented loving you and accepted who you are. I've learned to live with it that is why letting go is not really an option!

Honestly, I am chasing you day after day even without your knowing. You might think one day I already gave up! Never will I give up my happiness until I am ready to let go. I've learned to be grateful! What I had from you was enough and your presence is giving me so much inspiration. That is why I am striving not to lose hope.

Don't worry about me for one day soon I will be ready to let go. Effort adding more effort to love you cannot be kept in silence. When the right time comes, someone will emerge strong enough to make me change my mind and heart – someone to make me weak and let go, someone to help me get strong enough and walk away. There will be someone who can show me that there is always a better way to experience love. The unconditional love that reciprocate as you give. I believe God can love me like this. Who knows if God gives me favor to love me by you?

Soon I am ready to let go!

Yesterday defeats are buried forever and I will think of it no more. Today at this moment, I am going to celebrate happiness and give thanks to my Creator. Tomorrow will always be a dream, which is why I must enjoy the moment of reality. I am ready to let go the fears of being left behind, as you fall-out of love for whatever reason. Now I am not afraid because I know the love I am giving can only be appreciated by those who can stay. Please stay! If not, I am going to let go.

Now I welcome people who will come, stay and go!

Every person I meet is a reflection of me and I will treat them well. People will come to me as I attract who I am, and I will take care of the relationship with them as I take care of myself. I am glad to have them stay with me for the common things we have inside our heart and mind, to the same vision we see ahead of time and for the plan we are going to make together.

PS: Thank you for the last time you said you love me! I will treat that words as a seed. Like the nature that we cannot stop the seeds from growing and if the words are really meant for us to be together, I am glad to love you like I loved you yesterday, today and love you more each day.

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I Will Never Lose This Kind Of Feeling

Dear Ex (for this kind of feeling!)

I saw you in mind that you ware happy.
I found you in my heart that you ware sweet.
I can feel in future you'll be ready
We can be together with love so great

It's nice to know you're enjoying the days
I'll be more happy for the price I pay
I want to be with you no matter what
Where ever you are I'll be one step apart.

The love of God and memory of you
I can always feel closer next to you
With the love so warm and tender loving
I will never lose this kind of feeling.

About this poem I Will Never Lose This Kind Of Feeling.

I am just playing my vision that maybe time will come like this. I don't know what will happen sooner or later but now I know what I feel at the moment. I just want that someday that we might be on the same path again. Like I can always see you anytime or waking up hearing your voice or calling my name. I cannot promise you this but I will try not to lose this kind of feeling. Thank you so much for making me feel this way.

Grace Baque and Dlysen

Happy Women’s Day to Grace

For the strongest woman I ever met in my life.  The one who fills up the emptiness inside me. She is my Grace and the first person whom introduced me to the kind of love I will live for. I loved her and I will be loving her every day in my life. Happy Women’s Day.

Grace Baque

Happy Women’s Day.

I know you for being weak and strong women because I’ve been with you. Knowing you for such a year now make me believe that you are amazing Grace. I am so proud and happy to know about you more each day. Knowing your great improvement makes me feel inspired too.

You’re the women in my life that I wanted to be with because I can feel that you are the abundance source of my happiness. I want to be the first one to make you smile and greet you good morning. I want to comfort and take care of you until we fall asleep. A life being with you is so great.

You have my love that I kept inside me. Now my love is yours, please help this love of mine understand how I can love you at your best and even at your worst. My heart is not a kind of glass that you can break, my heart is made of flesh and blood that can express real emotions.

I wanted to say more about how good you are to me and how much I love you. Please take care always.

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Focus Journal 2016

Thank you for this journal, the kind of gift that I can touch and hold as your hand. This will help me improve my goals and plan. I can always remember Grace when I am opening and filling up the page each day.

Before end of this year 2015, I am filling up my commitment on this journal, so help me God. Let’s welcome the year 2016 claiming for the blessing that we are asking for. For my dreams or something better dear God, your will be done.

My Vision

What are the three things you value most, no amount of money can replace.

  1. The membership of the Church Of Christ, you can take everything from me but not my life serving the living God.
  2. My heart, you can change my mind for good and for the better; but my heart will always love what I learned to do and love.
  3. My family, my immediate source of happiness when I can find it within myself.

Describe your dream life. What life are you living?

I am dreaming of happy life, all the things I have is enough and my blessing is so much to share.

What skills do you have that you can develop, that the world needs, and would be willing to pay for?

I am a designer and programmer, I use this to help myself and my client to expand their business.

Goals for the Year

Base on your Vision, what do you want to focus on this year? Keep a list of goals so you always have something to go back to when you need a little reminder.

I will become better at:

  • Time management
  • Online Marketing

I will practice:

  • How to reach and greet people
  • I will learn how to communicate with business ethic

I will remember to:

  • Say thanks for what I am thankful
  • Take care of myself and be healthy

I will do my best to:

  • Master my emotion
  • Be efficient on my task

I will not shy out of:

  • My appearance and looks

Before the year ends, I will:

  • Attract more love and blessings.
  • I have enough for myself and I can give more.

My specific goals are:

  • Save the minimum amount of 5,000.00 per month.
  • Perform my daily task.
  • Get new client every month.
  • Give thanks to God.

My Daily Task

  • Pray when I wake up
  • Create Inspiration and make happy thoughts
  • Check Message
  • Drink Water
  • Look on the priority task list and schedules
  • Cook / Buy Food / Eat
  • Take a Bath
  • Do work with passion
  • Be thankful before end of the day
  • Surrender to God.

 

 

My Grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. ~ 2 Corinthians 12:9

Year-End Thanksgiving To God 2015

Happy thanksgiving. This year is great or good enough? It will depends on how I see it. I feel great for all the challenges that I’ve been through. I humbly bow myself down for the bad experience. In the summary of it! I am thankful for whatever happens, because in any case or situation there is God to look over and love me.

Love life – Thanks for the love! I am lucky to feel the love of God. This kind of love from God is the feelings that you can not compare from anyone.

Lessons – Experience taught me how! I’ve learned from hard way where I have to suffer and feel the pain. I’ve learned from my fear and doubts where I have to face it no more. I’ve learned when I am happy and grateful when I know everything can be taken away from you any time. Life at the edge can changed me and I had to learn and discover not to fall down again and again. When it turns out that I don’t know what to do, I give up, surrender, and accept the fact that I am not good enough or I can not able to do so. But I never quit! I’ve learned to seek God’s help and that is how I understand how God’s love is good.

Faith – it’s hard to surrender the belief that you have in your heart! Information may poison your mind but don’t let it get into your heart. We can get confuse of what is happening but I am rest assured that faith in my heart cannot be shaken. I thank You God for You are more than willing to enter in my heart. How can I feel God’s in your heart? I must keep the faith, surrender and obey.

Family – My family is my strength! I already lost my father last year and my mom’s just pass away this year. Thanks You for our parents. They taught us how to live in life and how to die at peace. They are the perfect example to show us that life is to short to waste on something not important. Life on earth ends whether you do good or bad things. And my parents taught us to know how important know know bad and good things. Farewell to my parents. Thank you God for having a family that making us close together and learn from each other.

Blessings – I asked so hard for the blessing that I wanted. I just don’t realise that all I need is a little of God’s grace and that would be enough. Thank you God for suppressing Your blessing to me. I may misuse the blessing if too much or this can lead me away from Your grace. Thank You for giving me what I have right now.

Friends – I have a good friend. Thank You for making us to lean and support each other. Sometimes the words that you want to speak for me came out from their advices. Thank You for having them to be with me as we journey in this life.

Naptalyn – Thank You so much for having her! She is such a great person in my life. She will always be in my heart because she is the girl who taught me how to reach You. She’s the girl who led me to feel the love that I am receiving from You. I have so much to tell about her but I prepare to keep it in silence and on prayer.